I was crying in my room after you had just called me
Telling me you need a break from my personality
I understood but 2 days later you ended things with me
The closest friendship I had ever seen
.
the root of my problem is I’ve never lost a friend
a friend I cared for,
a friend I loved,
that I truly cared about
.
All the things that I did wrong I really could of fixed
But Looking back it’s seems that you had made a list
.
Once I fucked up i was done
but I still wanted to out run
.
Your decision I didn’t believe it
I did everything to change it
But I really should have listened and just accepted it
Because you’re simply just not worth it
.
I made a lot of mistakes trying to fix a broken friendship,
number 1 was that one person didn’t want it to be fixed
And that’s the really big issue I kind of struggle with
.
Was I that awful of a person that you never want to talk to me again
Would a friendship with boundaries really be that hard to make and maintain
.
Sending letters was my last hope
However after a phone call with the person you trusted the most
I understood that I should of never sent those notes
.
You betrayed me,
took advantage of my vulnerability
Made me lose my stability
All by telling a man I saw as family, my deepest insecurities
And using it against me
.
I talked to a friend we had in common the other day
He wanted to catch up so I told him I’d stay
You’re lucky you’re not friends with them anymore is what he had to say
Mentioning your judgement, negativity and lies that you spread every day
.
That made me feel better, made me understand I might not be the only problem after all,
but I’ll still end up having to see you in the fall
Seeing you in the hallway, a reminder of it all
.
I know we can’t be friends again because that’s what Reddit said
So I guess I’ll just settle with hating you instead
x0x0, Chloe
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